I couldn't stop thinking today about the vast difference between my feelings one year ago as I was heading to El Salvador, and the calm that is over me now, as I am looking at my two week mark.
Last year I was petrified. I'd never left the country, my safety net, or my husband and childrens' side.
This year, I know who I am going to see. What I will be doing. Where I'm going.
There is no fear of the unknown. I was certainly excited last year, but this year it is quadrupled. I'm returning to a place where I felt the Holy Spirit in the wind, the torrential rain, the music, and heard his voice as I stared into the faces of the children. Those dark brown eyes that stared back into my blue ones and stole my heart. Children that can play with a simple balloon for hours without their excitement waning one bit. Some had shoes. Some didn't. Some got to eat that day. Some did not. I get to take them into my arms soon and hug each and every one.
Yes. I cannot wait to get back. To embrace my dear, beautiful friends that I have missed for the last year. But I also can't wait to see what God does in me this year. If you read back about my trip last year, you will find a very different woman that changed completely.
I'm still working out the kinks. Looking for a waterproof suitcase! Planning another early Father's Day and Birthday for my husband. Soaking up as much of my 4 loves as I can. Today though, I realized that I need to be spending a lot more time in prayer. Praying that God will be able to use me for something small, big.... doesn't matter. I just want to be used. I'm going to yearn for my children, my husband, and my plumbing. But oh my goodness! What an adventure. :)
Please follow me as I try to do a good work, and bring awareness to the need {of a most beautiful people} for Jesus and food. But mostly Jesus.
June 18th is the big day!
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