A Mommy's Life

Today is the day.  The day I dread anticipate all year long.  The first day of school. 

I'm not the mom who dreads Summer and all that time with her kids all day long.
I'm not the mom who says "I can't wait for school to start again so these kids will be out of my hair."
I'm not the mom on the school grounds who heaves a great sigh of relief that school has started so that I can have some "me time." 
I'm the one who can't sleep the night before school because I have butterflies in my stomach on behalf of my kids.

I'm the who lingers in the classroom and tries to psychically determine if this teacher {who will get to spend the lion's share of her day with MY fabulous daughters} will be kind and loving and fun. 
I'm the one who is barely holding it together on the inside, with a huge smile on her face so that her daughters will remain excited about school.

I'm the one who has to be physically prodded out of the classroom by her husband and holds onto his hand on the way home letting him lead me home because I can't see for the tears flowing down my face.

I'm the one who will watch the clock all day long until I can go and retrieve 2 of the loves of my life.

Is having 4 kids a lot of work? Yes.  Is having 4 kids as EVERY person we encounter in the world says "a handful?" Certainly. But it is the most fantastic handful.  I'm lucky.  I'm blessed.  I'm that mom.  And if that makes me the annoying mom who doesn't want to let go of her kids because she loves them so desperately.... then so be it.

I know, you're thinking he's insanely cute aren't you?  Either that or trying to decide if it is in fact the same baby.

 Its way better than the mom who barely rolls to a stop and shoves her kid out the car door and speeds off.  I'll be the clingy mom any day.  For them, I act like I'm really excited for their new adventure.  And I am.  I don't let them see my heartache at being apart from them.  But my kids know I love them.  They KNOW it.